Monday, 14 September 2015

Trust can sometimes be pure folly

When in your darkest hours turning to those that you think have your back, often shows the ugly side of truth. I have learned this the hard way this week. Never assume that those that are supposedly your friends will be there to assist you.

I have helped many people (and animals) over the years, financially, emotionally, food, clothing and my time.  I do not expect and never will expect to be paid back by those I have helped and will help in the future.

When I help it is because I can, and have a lot of compassion. But in the darkest part of my life that has been ongoing for many years, and has come to the crisis point. Suddenly those that I thought would help me have just looked the other way. I have been let down by many over the years, over various things. But this is the most critical. Life hangs in the balance, by a fine thread. There is a saying. No good deed goes unpunished, I often laugh at the old saying. However the reality of it is true. Many a true word is said in jest after all.

The help that I am seeking is not for me it is for a loved one. This makes it all the more heart breaking for me. Let me just say that the industry that I work in, is not as charitable as what people may think it is. It takes all sorts to make this world. This whole event leaves me disgusted in my fellow human beings. It is bad enough just looking at horrible world events unfolding, but this just re-enforces the belief that some people are selfish and lack compassion. I feel blessed not to be that sort of person. I will always help those that I am able to help. I ask for nothing and expect nothing. I do what I do silently and benevolently. Perhaps after I leave this earth others may know of my acts of kindness to others in need, but it matters not to me if they do or don't. Spirit knows and those that I help know. That is all that matters to me. That is what being spiritual means to me.

I won't name or shame any one, they can just live with their conscience if they have such a thing. That is not my problem. Just knowing they cannot look me in the eye tells me so much. I will leave it at that. I am not looking for conflict. I have my loved ones to care for. I have no time for conflict and negativity. I am just so disappointed and hurt. Can you understand what that feels like? I am humbly asking for help for a loved one, only to be ignored by those that I thought were friends and I trusted and had faith in. How foolish am I??